Life throws me a lot of curve balls, and honestly? I'm getting kind of sick of it. I'm a big planner, I like to know what I'm doing when and how exactly I'm doing it. My social life, my academic calendar, my personal interests - all planned. I have a day planner, for god's sake! Who owns one of those anymore? On any given day, my phone calendar has four different reminders set to alarms so I don't forget what I'm supposed to do on that particular day. Literally, if a to-do point doesn't exist in that calendar, chances are it's not getting accomplished on time, if at all. I've been pouring my time, thoughts, and heart into my Teach for America application over the past two months or so, only to receive the most upsetting news this afternoon. I wasn't invited to the final interview, which is the final stage of their 5-part application process. I felt so confident in my phone interview that I honestly didn't even entertain the thought that I wouldn't be invited to the final interview, so it really came as a difficult shock to absorb this afternoon. Now I'm sitting here cross-legged in front of my computer with a completely blank mind - I'm moving home in two months, hopefully have my minimum wage job to fall back on until May, and then...? I'll be a college graduate, unemployed, living at mom & dad's. Living. The. Dream. I didn't make a Plan B, I don't like to even consider the thought that my Plan A's might not work out. This is not how I saw this scenario playing itself out. I'm kind of at a loss for words right now. Thank goodness for good friends who offer kind words. Tomorrow is a new day!
No comments:
Post a Comment