It's simple: I belong somewhere else.  I don't know if a change of era is in order, or simply a change of scenery, either way I can honestly say I'm tired of this.  These things I fill my time with, these familiar comfortable footsteps.  The damned bus routes that take me between homes I lay my head down at, to coffee shops where I sit and frantically type like I'm mad at my computer inside of, to places I tie an apron around my waist and serve people drinks and call it 'work.'  I need something new, and I know I say this often but the caged bird feeling just won't stay at bay, no matter how hard I try and make it disappear.  I attempt to push it deep down into some hidden place where I won't feel it's constant nagging, into some space where it has no hold on my emotions or my (lack of) perfect planning.  I'm sorry I don't seem present, although my body stands in front of you my heart is in twenty different places, my soul spread exhaustively thin, and my mind in constant wander and wonder.  I don't know what makes me tick, I couldn't tell you what I like and dislike about a vacation I took or a moment I found myself trapped in, taking disposable photographs alongside four other girls who looked really really lovely, but I could never pinpoint my emotions.  I'm not present till I'm moving, never feel completely full of emotion until I'm gone, I don't miss people before they turn their backs, can't recall instances moments after they happened but rather weeks or months in the future.  I don't wear a watch because I don't like to feel jaded by the unfair amount of hours we're allowed per day, the unfair amount of days we're allowed to breathe this air, I don't want the days to end simply like I never want the adventure to be over.  I'm not running, I simply refuse to be stagnant, and the comfort that I find so quickly and so fluidly in new situations is equal parts unnerving and comforting to me.  When will I find the place where I feel comfort, yet solace in the fact that I don't need to keep searching anymore, if it exists for an adventuresome soul like mine?