babysteps

 to becoming the person that i want to be

to giving up the things that bind me

insecurities

passionate rising calling my soul to something greater

tears running down my cheeks

because i know

it's so far away

no matter how earnestly i seek it

no matter how dearly i wish to hold

it's not mine

not yet

ticking time testaments

to the woman i can become

to the man who will stand beside me

to these beautiful surroundings i hope to renew

to the promises left unsaid

never unkept

 kinder words have never been spoken than these

I Want You

here with me

listen to my heart

it beats a rhythm that seems to spell your name

with every ventricle

every vessel

every moment spent awake

in an existence apart from natural dreams

forcing myself to imagine these things

so that when im awake i can remember

the things i wished

the snapshots of moments spent together

the arm outstretched across the left side of the bed

the smiles that i share with myself

knowing that you'd share them if you were here too

precious time

insistent dreams

persisting heart beating

i'm going now.