I'm really lonely. Being lonely makes me crazy. Feeling crazy makes it easier to justify doing stupid things and saying things you don't mean. Being 'that girl,' the person who is the antithesis of all of the things you aspire to be. Weak willed, insincere, allowing myself to be disrespected and co-dependent. Yeah it's so easy to chalk it all up to nonsense, but when I really let myself explore the reasons for why I do what I do, more often than not I find myself horrified. Jealousy, selfishness, inadequacy. If only I could stop chasing my own tail and find the bliss I know from time to time.
Soundtrack: Fans & street traffic
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