There's no such thing as too far away. You could be happy but you won't, there's too many excuses to find yourself content. I could make you happy, but I won't. There's too many "what if's" chasing me around every blind corner. Part of me wants to take my shoes off and stay a while, see what this part of life has to offer. But there is a far greater part of me that instructs me to live life free, to do what I please and enjoy being young. I am torn, as I so often am, between the responsible me and the carefree me. I suppose that this struggle simply happens at one point or another in life, can't really get around it. I want so badly to accept the fact that I am growing up and finally have to take responsibility for myself, but am having far too much fun to let my life be dictated by the rules and regulations of a society I don't subscribe to, at least not consciously.
I need a breath. All this disproportionate thinking has led me astray and left me stranded in my own thoughts. To smile is one thing, to laugh is another all together. Currently: reminding myself of the countless mysteries life has given me, and has yet to reveal. If that's not optimistic I don't know what is.
Soundtrack:
Bon Iver - Flume
Death Cab For Cutie - Title Track
Stars - The Calendar Girl
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