I have just been so uninspired lately. When I sit down to write I stare at a blank screen and run through my head all of the things I still have left to do before the day's over. Too much job searching, too little job offers. Too much studying, too little learning. Too much working toward something I can't even imagine working out, too little effort in the hands of other people.
I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself, and sulking about how many things I'm trying to juggle right now, and just get to it. Writing can wait, fun can wait, friends can wait.
Even as I'm sitting here at my computer desk right now, I look up and I see about five post-it notes with "TO DO" written at the top of them and outlined probably four, maybe five, times. I'm so neurotic it's not even funny. TO DO: Call this 800 number to cancel subscription I accidentally made because I'm an idiot. TO DO: Call all of these businesses and ask for free stuff from them because apparently they'll give it to you? TO DO: Eat lots of grapefruit and water and try to get to bed before 9pm.
No, not really that last one, that's more of a to do mental note. Is it that obvious that I'm losing it?
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