I Told You I Didn't Want My Picture Taken, You Snapped It Anyway.

Ready for some honesty? Okay, here we go.

I don't feel like I have many things to apologize for, period. Yeah I've made some decisions that people would refer to as mistakes, but that isn't the way I see them. If I had to relive any of those situations, there is a very good chance that I would act in an identical manner to the way I did. Some things I've done I can look back on and pinpoint little areas I might have changed or acted out slightly differently, but nobody is allowed to live in hindsight-perspective, so why try? You can't change what has already occurred.

I feel as though I've changed, not in a good nor in a bad way. And at the same time I feel like I was being held back by certain people and obstacles and containers and commitments that I willingly forced myself to be a part of. Now these thing are not inherently bad in and of themselves, but for me to be involved in at this point in my life was almost detrimental to my growing up process. I am proud of the things I have learned, I am not necessarily proud of the way I learned them or the steps I took in order to get through that process, but I can honesty say I am happy with the end result.

Sometimes it's pretty difficult to take a good, hard look at yourself and ask "am I happy with who I am?" But I've done that, and after much consideration and thought, I've decided the answer is yes. And if you're doubtful of that and you think I'm in a bad spot, well you're dead wrong. The process of change is painful, and pain is not necessarily synonymous with unhappiness. Not in this case.