So I guess this is what I expected, I'm such a sucker for timing and consequential circumstances and my own perception of the way things should be as opposed to the way things are. This isn't right, that wasn't right, here's how I'll see it in order to create rightness for myself. But what I find correct isn't necessarily true for somebody else, especially here. So once again here I am, left to decipher what was actual and what was perceived. The mind is a dangerous tool, not a weapon necessarily, but definitely capable of destruction. Yet, at the same time, the way the mind creates is an astonishingly beautiful thing, sometimes I actually find myself afraid of it.
Vows I need to uphold in order to no longer find myself in situations such as this one:
(1) I'll listen more, understand clearly, ask for clarification when necessary.
(2) I'll open my eyes to different viewpoints; such as, the way I see things may be completely opposite of the way somebody else might perceive them.
(3) I'll shut up. Just stop talking from time to time, let other people's words guide my thoughts and then decide upon that what my actions will be.
(4) I'll allow my head to have more say in the way I carry myself, rather than being completely empathetic and heart-driven.
Okay, here we go again. I'm not saying it's a new beginning, just an unexpected obstacle. I am definitely still determined to accomplish the same things that I was before, just from a different direction. And that's alright with me, if that's what is required.
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