Awake My Soul.

I have so much love to share with the people around me that when I have to keep it bottled up I literally feel as though I could explode at any given moment.  This is one of the reasons why it's so hard for me to cut ties, lose contact, end relationships.  I was talking with a friend tonight about why it's so hard to let go, why it's so hard to realize that people can act as transitionary things, stumbling in and out of your life as they please.  I've always been one to hold people incredibly close to my heart, so I've always found it tough to let them go, or let them wander, or simply accept the fact that they may not be near to me ever again.  My friend seemed to be struggling with the same thing.  You see the beauty in love and life and how we perceive things is that no matter what language we speak, what culture we were raised in, we can convey loneliness and hurt and the immense desire to have close relationships in our lives the same way - through love.  So even though I didn't fully understand what he was saying, I understood where he was coming from (in a mental sense, I suppose).  Sorry if this isn't quite tracking - I'm half a bottle of wine in and this seems to be flowing quite naturally to me. 

But I guess after all is said and done, all you can really know if that life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it.  Introducing you to people you'll never really know, but you'll long to know, but you'll be so far away from.  Coming in contact with strangers who quickly become friends who even quicker become strangers once again.  Loving, losing, crying, accepting.  Everything is in transition, constantly.  If there's one single thing I've learned from being heart broken over friends and boyfriends and people in general, it's that the only constant in life is change.  Embrace it or you'll drown.

Soundtrack:
Mumford & Sons - Awake My Soul
Babel playing in the background (I should probably rewind a chapter or two...)