In The Middle of Drinks - Maybe The Fifth or The Sixth

You're not being held

You're free to go and find a new pair of hands to hold

I'm releasing the mental grips

That I had on me, on me on you, on whatever it was I was holding on to

Bye bye baby, fly away fly away

Be free to do the things you always think but never say

So next time I cross your mind

Shake me out and pretend we're fine

If I should arise in mid conversation

Breeze past the mention and tell her how pretty she looks in that dress

But what she doesn't know

What she'll never know

Is that when you leave

You left

You're gone

And she won't even notice

The pretty thoughts that fill your head in the morning when you wake

Til the moment you lay down, gladly accepting some escape

Sometimes I live there and other times you're alone

Regardless the company, it's always freeing

To dance alone, to dance side by side

To dance with your arms encircling mine

And to feel like nothing existing around us cares

If we stop what we're doing and simply stand still there

Exhausting the minutes, tying flowers up in my hair

But when I open my eyes, you aren't there

And when you leave

You left

You're gone

But I think you'll be back, yes I'm almost sure

I'll be here as I always was, as I always am

So you can come back when you please, if you need, to hold my hand

Daytime turns cold and I'm wandering outside my apartment

Wondering if tomorrow you might show up in this exact place

Waiting for me, waiting for you, still here, as I said I would be

As I always will be

But when you leave

You left

You're gone

 And I'm not fine, I'm a mess

I'm pity and I'm anger

And I'm hitting the girl inside of me who is forcing me to put the telephone down

My pillow is an ocean and I am no match for something so strong

So powerful that it envelops me the nights I try to sleep

And I'm caught in an ugly storm

Only to wake to an empty bed and sheets all tangled between my legs

This is all I'm doing now

Waiting for the clouds to accumulate above my roof

And rain in through my windows and wash you away

Every piece of you that's left behind

When you leave

You left

You're gone

I'm fine

Everything will be beautiful once again

When the rain clears the storm drains so the daffodils can bloom

And nobody in this apartment will even remember you

When spring comes I'll be okay

When the winter is over I'll be alright

When the ocean settles and the winds are calm

That's where I'll find peace

But now I know that when you leave

You're gone

And I'm better than fine

I'm bloomed

Soundtrack: Bright Eyes - Hit The Switch
Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap